I'm still recovering from 2020.
It was a year of struggle, disappointment, confusion and chaos.
It was also a year of growth. But that growth came through much pain.
I remember being in a particularly bad mood one day because I was upset at myself.
I felt like I shouldn't be so emotional and that I should have more control of my situation.
I remember sitting in my bed sulking in my feelings--in and out of troubled prayers. And then mid-sentence, I felt a sense of overwhelming peace and the voice of God speak to my heart. It was exactly what I needed to hear, and it simply said:
You have permission.
You have permission to not be perfect.
You have permission to fret when things don't go your way.
You have permission to feel weak.
You have permission to feel vulnerable.
You have permission to not know it all.
You have permission to feel afraid and empowered at the same time. To have moments of both doubt and fear--you have permission.
You have permission to be yourself, in the fullness of what it is--no matter how broken it may be --you have permission.
You have permission to feel weak, and to be overwhelmed by not having the answer.
You have permission to cry.
You have permission to laugh.
You have permission to weep when words fail you.
You have permission to celebrate just for seeing another day.
You have permission to be human.
You have permission to be.
So just be.
Wherever you are at in your journey, I hope you are encouraged to know that feeling weak and out of control is actually the best place to be. It's in that place that Divinity shines His light and love on our human condition. This light reveals the power of Christ to heal, restore, guide and transform.
Rarely does this happen instantaneously, but with each passing day we get the chance to experience supernatural communication with God as we navigate life with God on our side. Assurance of that brings great peace--even when things don't go as planned.
This peace and power is available to all who desire to experience the reality of Christ who is the source of true Love. All it takes is simple faith and trust in Him. If you are reading this post, I pray the the light of God shine on your heart, and give you the freedom to "just be," fully, freely and abundantly.